whole heartedly.

i am obsessed with my child.

when she is awake, i will do anything to make her smile. or coo. her noises are so sweet and angelic. it is heaven to me.

when she sleeps, i stare at her, smiling, and sometimes crying, because i literally love her so much that it makes me so happy but also so scared.

when she naps, which she is actually doing from time to time now, i blog about her. and edit pictures of her. and make videos.

i am that mother. oh well. riley- you are sooo worth it girl.

happy three months my little girl. you are, without a doubt, the best thing i have ever done.

rileys first friend!

we got to spend the last weekend in palm dessert with DUKE. it was so special to see our babies together. so so special.

such a fun time. other than the hangover (scotty was on daddy duty... but i wont be asking that of him again for a loooooooong time).

nica.

so... sometimes when people start a family things change. not when youre married to scotty. so even though we have a two and a half month old bebe- he booked us 8 days in nicaragua. on a beach in the middle of nowhwhere, with a convenient left break for him to enjoy, and an infinity pool for me and riley to enjoy. we will be there with two other lovely couples (love you kim), but im a little worried. a little.

anywho- on my nica to do list:

1. make sure my baby is 110% up to date on her vaccinations. (they will be completed like the day before we depart).

2. make like 60 versions of my "pack for baby" list and have my mother and pediatrician check it 25 times each.

3. walk a lot of hills.

4. lose about 20 lbs.

here are some things i have purchased or plan on purchasing to make me feel better about the trip. yes, i can absolutely be bought.

got this for the little lady. spf 30 and weighs next to nothing. she is going to be so cute hanging out in it on the beach. i am obsessed with diapers.com. (i placed an order at 3:50pm yesterday and there is a huge box, with this tent in it, and dish soap, and diapers, and scottys body wash on my doorstep as we speak. its 9:17 am! and free shipping).

you might be thinking, elysia- this is a maternity dress?!?!? riley is out of your stomach... well yes, but i love it on the skinny bitch too. this is on the wish list for nica. made by hatch. they are my new favorite designer. even though i am not prego. fuck it. i will be again one day...

riley and i need matching salt waters. im just having a hard time finding them for me. but these make me smile. yes, i know she doesnt walk.

you may be thinking... a blouse swimsuit?!?!?! elysia- dont give up entirely at 29! but i ordered it. and im gonna rock it. thanks jcrew.
courtney was wearing these last weekend. i loved them, so i ordered them. a lady can never have too many shades. especially when you lose them the way i do. so cute! and only $42 @ anthropologie.
i LOVEEEE these. i dont usually buy free people stuff if it isnt on sale- bc it ALWAYS goes on sale (ive been tricked too many times before). so i am keeping tabs on them and will soon have them in my possession, and for 30% less. but i love them.

food.

so two posts below this one i described how i was going to be cooking dinner almost every night of the week.

well... i HAVE been. for the most part. its nuts. i am quite the little multi-tasker in the kitchen i must say.

sunday: salad at home

monday: we went to enterprise fish co for dinner and drinks. -1 point for me.

tuesday: taco tuesday ya'll.

wednesday: salad, spaghetti, homemade garlic bread

thursday: went to the new pop up on abbot kinney- "wolf in sheeps clothing". im not going to deduct a point bc it was so worth it.

tonight: dinner at scottys grandparents. but i made dessert, so i am keeping my point.

(i cheat.)

here is tonights dessert- chocolate covered apples, cheesecake stuffed strawberries, and nilla wafer cheesecake sammies dipped in chocolate. im fat.

yeah. and i should mention that we will be in palm desert in three weeks. and i need to be in a swim suit. so... the above photo is fucking unnecessary. stop it- you. nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.

life with riley

i dont really have anything other than riley going on in my life. so... riley it is. riley riley riley.

the hubs took the day off of work today to spend the day with his girls. its so nice to have him around. and an extra pair of hands. we went for a walk down to the beach, had breaky on the boardwalk, and then walked around a bit. riley and i were happy happy girls.

riley got a cute new dress and the sun was out so scotty snapped a few pics of us in the sunshine. i have like 4 pictures of her and i. so even though these arent the best pictures, i will cherish them forever.

she may look like her dad, but she always has dirty feet... just like her momma. some of us just prefer to be barefoot and happy.

thats all for this 80* friday.

bad blogger.

how is it that i havent had a spare moment to update the blog? probably bc i use my free time to shower, or tweeze my eyebrows, or fold clothes, or read other peoples blogs...

riley turned 6 weeks old yesterday. at her 5 week check up- she gained OVER 2x the amount that a normal baby would gain. i guess that makes sense considering she nurses every 45 minutes. she is plump, and healthy and DELICIOUS, and over 10.5 lbs!

she sleeps on my pillow, facing me. i feel her breathe all night... it brings me comfort and happiness that i cannot describe. i live for it.

she looks just like scotty. big ol blue eyes and all... lucky girl.

i feel back to normal again. we leave the house every day. this is huge for me.

my lower half got the feared "go ahead" yesterday. i can get up and down and feel zero pain. i can also exercise now. it has been a very long time since i did that. i have 8 lbs until i get to my "pre-baby" weight, but 18 to go until i reach my "pre- marriage" weight. whoops. so lots of work to do.

i am happy again, too. riley has always made me happy... but i had some ups and downs the last few weeks that i think scared scotty a little. but all is well on the bentley court front... except for the fact that i am SO BORED. i miss work a lot. i miss just talking to people about anything.

here is our little nugget. love her.

my genius idea to go on walks every night to lose the weight with scotty and riley has gotten derailed by the whole foods gelato three blocks away.
this is one of my favorites. what a sweety.
when nothing else will do- she lays on scotts forearm and sucks his fingers. whatever works.

this is the most threatening face in the world. this is what scott and i fear all day and all night. this face means i am about to flippin lose it. but its still so cute, no?

and riley knows how sexy i think my OB is so she purposely made crossed eyes in this pic. so that i never frame it. to protect scott. haha. also- still cute.

i am simply not the best cook. and to be honest... i dont really enjoy cooking all that much. anyways- i decided i am going to be one of those mommas who makes the same shit every week.

so then when riley asks her friend if they want to stay for dinner (i am thinking long term here), and they say, whats your mom making, riley can be like, "its monday- so spaghetti and then she will be drinking wine watching the bachelor".

sunday- some sort of filling salad... figuring we will have usually gone out for brunch ill keep it light. salmon caesar, chinese chicken, you get the point.

monday- spaghetti of some sort

tuesday- taco tuesday, duh

wednesday- fish of some sort (here is yesterdays tilapia with mango salsa and quinoa)

thursday- ronda's chicken. my mother in law has a fool proof chicken recipe. its heaven.

friday- order in.

saturday- husband will be taking me out. wine and dine me. or else i will lose it.

and- i think the cork board i bought for our kitchen is big enough. do you?

yes, this is what my life has amounted to. i need to go back to work.

rough.

my beautiful baby girl has a cold. she is not happy. she is not sleeping.

so neither am i.

this is hard. get well soon riley bear.

we love you.